The Final days are apporching

My dad called this morning and Mom is not stable enough to have a cath put into her to drain, nor is very stable to have the paresenthis done. The Cancer has conquered her and has won the fight with her body. Of which I have found peace with. Do not get me wrong this is one of the hardest things that I have had to go through thus far in my existence of 32 years. But knowing the most amazing women for 32 years has truly been a blessing to me. I remember so many things and times spent with my mom. I remember her love for music ran deep and she was always singing. Oh her voice when she would sing was like and angel. I loved listening to her and her sisters talk and laugh and cry and giggle. As a kid that was my favorite thing to do was to listen to all of them talk and reminisce about them growing up. Another great thing about my mom was her writing. She always intrigued us with her stories she wrote. She loved to write, and although she never published anything she was fantastic at it. Her many skits and sacrament meeting presentations whether for Christmas or primary were fantastic. I always would call her and ask her for ideas as I grew older and had many of the same callings she had had. The vision that she had about anything was always so perfect and she always pulled everything off just perfect as well. Her life of Service to Her Heavenly Father I am sure is why she is now being called to pass through the veil to the other side where she will continue to serve her Father in Heaven and His Children.

I am saddened by not having her here to hug and talk to on this earth and it will be hard to get used to but I am sure that in time and through prayer and faithfulness my heart will be lightened by the knowledge that I WILL SEE HER AGAIN. I know that this is just a blink of time for her and she will leave this world and the pain and suffering that she has endured now for 6 months. I am excited that my mother of whom I love so much will have a great reward as she embarks in this new journey and excitence on her path to perfection. The gift of the Atonement of our Savior Jesus Christ brings much joy to me at this time. Knowing that she will live again and in the flesh she and I will be able to hug and talk again. She is a remarkable lady of whom she will be missed greatly here on this earth. But I hope that I can take her legacy and share it with my children and grandchildren that they may know her through me.

When my wonderful Aunt pasted away in July of 1991 (my moms sister) at the age of 39, I was at a cross road in my life that could have taken me to a path I wish never to go down. It was a few months later in a dream that she came to me and as clear as day said "Sally you need to prepare your life so that you can be a forever family. Prepare your self for the year 2011" I was 13 years old and to most 13 year old's that are thinking about going down a path not supported by our Savior would have forgotten about a dream like that. But I have never forgotten anything my Aunt Linda has taught me. I changed how I was living and went through a lengthily repentance process. I had a wonderful teenage life full of friends that lead me to where I am today Married with a wonderful Priesthood holder to guide me and our 6 children to Eternal Life. Yet in the back of mind for so many years I thought back to this dream and the be prepared for 2011. When the year came I thought nothing of it until June when My brother called me at 7:30 am with the news that Mom had Cancer. With the few days that I had to prepare to make the trip to Kansas with our 6 children I went over in my head the ways in which the Lord helped me to prepare for this trial. I was struggling with my spiritual growth for some time and then last year I was asked to Substitute in Primary as the Chorister. I gladly did this for this had been a dream and passion of mine for ever sense I could remember. The testimony that I had was being strengthened by these amazing little children. Through the songs and simplicity of the primary gospel teaching it stirred a fire in me. I later was called as the chorister. I loved teaching the kids the gospel through music, the spirit was often so strong I had tears in my eyes as they sang. I soon was the called as a counselor in the primary with the best leader I could have asked for. She taught me so many things while I was in primary. It was the simplicity of the gospel, the studying of the scriptures that helped me to gain an even stronger testimony of the Divine Plan of Salvation and of Our Savior Jesus Christ a gift that I will always treasure. I knew that Christ our Savior knew that I needed these experiences in my life to prepare me for what I am now dealing with. He also knew that I would need the friends that he so carefully placed into my life at this time as well. One of my dearest friends besides my Mom and sisters Kendra what an example of strength she has been she gave me self confidence something I struggled with for a long time. And then to all my friends that I have met while volunteering in the kids school. Becky for her true love and support that she has been to me through this tuff time. Jolynne for her selfless acts of service that she has rendered to me. Many many more friends that I can not name all of them because they are numberless.

I know that it is through the love my Savior has for me that he has made me who I am right now. I know that everyone in my life have been my angels helping me to return to my Father in Heaven. Now My mother with Join her loved ones that have already gone on. Her Mom and Dad and Sister and Brother. They were family down here on earth and are now about to be reunited with yet another family member My mother. One step closer to the day that Christ will say to them Well done though good and faithful servant. I am grateful for the knowledge of the temple and its blessings and promises. I hope and pray that I can continue to live up to the high standard of being able to attend the temple that when Heavenly Father calls me home that I too can again live with my mother and aunt and grandparents and uncle I have yet to meet.

So in short I am sad that my time with my mom here on this earth is short but am grateful for the temple blessing that allows our family to not just be together til death do us part but for time and all eternity through the power of the priesthood and the sealing keys that Elijah restored in Kirkland Ohio in the Temple. I am truly grateful for the gospel of Jesus Christ and for the faithful priesthood holders that have made this possible in my lifetime.

My mother now will meet the Prophets great and old to which I am jealous that I am not by her side to do so with. But that is OK she will one day take my hand and introduce me to all the great and noble men and women!!! Mom will be a great missionary to our family and I will continue to do research for our ancestors who have gone before us and continue to bring to pass the immortality and eternal life of man through the promise of Elijah.

I write this now before my Mom is gone because I do not know what I will be feeling or how up to writing I will be after she is gone. I Pray that The Lord will give comfort to me as we embark on this new chapter for all involved!!!


MOM I LOVE YOU WITH EVERY FIBER OF MY BEAN!!!!YOU ARE THE BEST MOM EVER!!!!!