Sleepless night

I was laying in my bed trying to sleep but could not...first I got mad cause I knew I needed the sleep, but then figured I could use the time to be angry or just get up and relax my mind.  So I am doing so now.
I have been missing my mom lately.  I had the opportunity to spend time with my 2 sweet younger sisters this weekend!  We got to go shopping and had lots of fun doing so!  But as they left I could not help but feel like I could not fill the void they must have for not having my mom there to take them.  This is something that my mom did with the girls.  My heart breaks for the girls and I wish I could take away the hurt.  Yet through this they have shown great faith in the powerful and humbling miracle of the resurrection.  When I have these moments I tend to get very emotional and have a hard time recovering from these.  I know that when I do this I rely on the Lord to comfort me.  I was blessed to be able to go to the temple yesterday and all through the session I had an overwhelming feeling of Gods indvidual love for me and that he knows my sorrows and loves me and wants nothing more for me to be happy.  Lately I have felt the veil so thin and it is as if at times mom is right here with me.  I can feel her but just can not see her.  I feel overwhelming peace and joy.  But I wish for just a split second I could see her just once.  That is what I was feeling tonight and I just wish I could see her.  This has been the hardest thing I have gone through and I feel at times that I need someone to talk to someone to listen and just hold me and tell me it is going to be ok and that I will make it through this.  But I feel at a loss right now... Not having anyone that can listen, like when I am up in the middle of the night...needing a shoulder to cry on...The nights for me are the worst.  But in time it will be eaiser.  And there are more better days than bad now.  But I guess I have just had an off week.  Those can and will be expected and that is just fine.

Sorry to be so emotional tonight... Just happens from time to time!