Ok it has been a very long time.

Life seems to have it's way of filling up my time.  And I have been having a feeling that I needed to start writing my blog again.  So here I am pushed a little by a friend who had mentioned that she missed reading my blog.  That was a tender mercy of  the Lord.....I needed to hear that there are those out there that enjoyed reading about what mattered most in my life.....Any ways...

I have been feeling as though I need to really strengthen my family.  Many of you know that my life changed almost 2 years ago when my husband and I seperated and I moved to Ut with my kids.  Eventually Joseph moved back to be with his dad.  Things were really rough.  I have struggled my whole marriage with happiness and contentment.  Something that I earned for and wondered if I would ever receive that.  I felt as though I worked so hard to be that way, happy and content.  Doing all the things that would make me feel that way...reading my scriptures, praying, fasting, having family prayer and scriptures and doing family home evening with my family and serving my family, friends and serving in the church.  All of these things and to no avail I was sad.  I hated it!  I needed to leave and prayed for a long time if what I was feeling was what I was supposed to do.  I was answered so clearly I can not deny the feeling I received.  But like always in my life I was instructed to be patient by my guardian angel....I think that is her calling to tell me to be patient in all things I do.  When the time was right.  And so I waited and waited.  Anyways I am now here in UT.  A place of refuge and rebuilding and seeking personal growth.  I have in the last 18 months been so happy, even in times of sorrow and trail, I see the light and possibilities there are for me and my children!  I have like I said that I have this overpowering feeling to teach my children about the family and why it is such an important principle in our lives.  Even when our family is not all together right now.  I know it is a tough thing for my children and I want them to know what a family is like.  We do not live in a normal family lifestyle but I can try to teach them what one can be like.  On Sunday our lesson was on The Family: A Proclamation To The Family.  I am going to be doing our morning devotional on that piece of Doctrine, from a Prophet of the Lord!    Being a single mom sure has its challenges but it also is sweet to see my children grow and learn and become stronger and tougher as well.  As I study and make our devotionals for each morning I will try to update you on our progress.  The Lord only requires us to try our best he carries us through the simple and joyful moments as well as through our deepest and darkest hour, Why?  Simply because he loves us more than we can ever imagine.  We are the ones that have to reach out and hold on and trust in His way!