It is time for another update

This week has been a long week indeed. On Monday Mom had a CT scan because her 2nd drain stopped working. What they found was not exactly what we had expected. The masses on her liver had grown a bit. The fluid in her abdomen had started turning into masses along the lining of her wall. Which would explain the hardness and firmness of her abdomen. There was also some fluid around her lungs. This changed her prognosis which blew all of us away. Now instead of having months she has weeks. To me every moment I have with her counts!!! Having this new prognosis and because of the aggressiveness of the melanoma she is not eligible for the trial drugs. So they went ahead and started just regular chemo to help her buy some time. She started I think Tuesday and did her last round Friday and then she will have a break for 3 weeks. She said that the chemo was not to bad and her side affects were feeling full and heavy after treatment. Also she said it seemed to take a long time and it was boring.

I feel so bad for what she has to endure. The pain the sickness is not anyone's strengths and she has to go through this. It has been nice to take care of her, to serve her and do anything and everything I can to help out with her.

One Monday night we gathered around her bed with all of us brothers and sisters exepet my oldest brother he had to go back to Africa for the military. All of our kids were there too. We sang primary songs and cried and laughed and loved each other. I never imagined I would have to face death at such a young age. But as I face it head on with my own mother i find myself wanting to tell her every time I talk to her or see her that I love her. I have tried to get to see her everyday that she feels like having company!!! One Thursday we were able to go up as sisters and just sit and laugh and have fun with her we did her nails and shaved her legs and shared of course on video our most memorable times we have had with each other. We got mom on video doing the big wide mouth frog and then we had worn her out so next time which we are hoping for tonight to get her to sing the little blue man and the dancing shoes!!! We love all that she has ever done with us and am grateful to know that she has had the opprotunity to be our mother we feel honored.

I worte this post the other day but better late then never.