Happy Fall on this crisp chilly morning!!!!

As I looked at the last entry I was supprised that I had not written anything for quite sometime.  It is hard to remember where I write because I keep a journal as well.  Anyways.......

I woke up this morning not wanting to get out of my warm cozy bed.  The air was crisp and a chill was in the air!  I love this time of year when the heat of the summer changes almost overnight.  When the kids come downstairs in the morning all wrapped up in their blankets, just wanting to snuggle.  Trying to stay warm, and wanting to be in mommy's lap to stay warm. We all had breakfast and lunches were packed and then the kids got dressed for school.  I asked them all to wear pants, because it was a chilly morning.  It is always a sad day for my kids when mom asks them to wear pants.  They would rather wear shorts, maybe because they love the summer and want it to last forever.  Don't we all wish that summer could last forever the relaxing laid back enviroment of summer.  The camping, hiking, picnicing of summer.  The late nights playing with friends, staying up watching movies, all of the fun of summer is now coming to end and my children are not wanting it to end.  Anyways the fall is most definanly on its way and I am ready for it to be here!!  I love the fall time when the air feels so cool and crisp.  It is fresh and the colors of the leaves are starting to change.  The garden is being harvested and the smell of yummy soups simmering on the stove.  The smell of homemade bread makes the house smell like heaven.

When I was younger still living at home my mother would be baking bread or muffins or cinniomon rolls in the oven.  After she was done baking the house would have the most amazing aroma of what ever she was baking for us that day!  I loved getting out of bed those mornings.  I new that I could always go stand by the warm oven that she would leave cracked open after she was done with it.  Fall time is my most faviorite time of the year.  What can I say.


Now on top of all of these reasons for fall being so special to me it now has a new meaning to me.  My mother was sick with cancer last fall.  I was able to spend the fall with her.  I was able to see the changes of the season with her for the last time.  I traveled to KS last Sept. to be with my mother and spend time with her.  It is a time I will always cherish.  My mother was on a new cancer drug and all the symptoms that she had had that summer were subsided and her tumor was shrinking.  She was moving around and lost all her weight.  She was physicaly looking like the mom I new.  But her emotions were not the same.  She new that her Father in Heaven was calling her back and she was ready to go.  As we walked 3 times a week we would talk of things and memories that we had made.  We loved spending time together.  But the day I loaded up to go back home was a bitter sweet moment.  Mom and I had planned on her coming out to Idaho to suprise her sisters.  We both had something to look forward to and we did just that.  Then she started feeling sick again.  And with the fall coming to an end her life was now coming to an end and quite rapidly.  The cancer had come back with a vengance.  She was fine going in to the Dr on Monday and by the next Monday she had gone home to her Father in Heaven.  Leaving this life with an amazing leagacy for me to carry on.  Her life was one of love and service to all she knew and touched.  She now continues to serve along side her Sister Linda, her mother and father and her Brother Hyrum.   Not to mention the many others that have gone on before her.  She will continue to do great work for her family on the other side of this thin veil.  I love my mother and am glad that we got to enjoy one last fall together.  She is an amazing woman that taught me many wonderful things!!  One of which is to enjoy each moment in life no matter how hard that moment is.  Just as the leave change color and fall of the tree in the fall, our lives do the same thing, and after a period of rest those amazing trees bud and bring forth new leaves, ready to face another spring and summer.  So our lives change and we turn over new leaves that are ready again to face another season of growth.  Let us remember that each leaf in our life brings forth more experience and we learn with each one of these experiences to grow closer to our Father in Heaven.


Fall is awesome!!   Happy Fall to everyone!!