Back in Kansas again!

I had some very mixed feelings about coming here to Kansas.  I knew that I would have some difficult tasks to accomplish.  The feelings and emotions ran deep.  I cried a lot and I thought a lot.  The drive here was difficult, but I decided that I needed to make this a memory that I would cherish.  So I write today with joy in my heart for the memories of my mother that I have.  As our family goes through all the things that were mothers we will remember how she used them, where she got them, and why she loved them!! She was a great mother and had many talents that I hope if I have not already developed them I will try my hardest to do just that.  Mom always tried to do new things and was so full of life and embraced every moment with joy and happiness!!  I have had a rough few months but I am going to embrace every part of my life and  its challenges with a determination to move forward with faith to do what the Lord would have me do!!  Even though times will be hard with the right attitude in life I can make it the best life for me and my children!!  And so I put away the pains of my heart and the pains that my physical body has been giving me and I move forward and not let those things consume my thoughts.  I give them to Father in Heaven and let him carry them for me!!

I love all my family and friends for the support that they have given me!  It has been very helpful and I appreciate it very much!!  Without it in this life where would we be?  Lost, but I am not lost .  I have an amazing support system to help me through this hard time!  I love life and the plan of salvation.  I love my Savior for he has never left me even in my darkest hours.

Mom I love you and am eager for that day when we will be in each others arms again! I love you!  I know I felt like this when you left Heaven to come to earth, we were separated then and through patience we were reunited.  Now it is my turn to be patient until we are again reunited with each other in the Spirit world!  Love you Mom!  Talk to you soon!  Until then keep teaching the gospel to all our family that need to hear it!  I know your work is hard at times but you and Aunt Linda are amazing women that have been my guiding light!  I will make you proud down here on earth as you make me proud up in the spirit world!  Until we meet again, I will continue to attend the temple, so that families will be bound together forever as these Holy promises and covenants we make in the temple.   As the promise that Elijah made, that the hearts of the children will turn to their fathers and the hearts of the fathers turn to their children, lest the whole earth be smitten with a curse.  The Lord truly loves us and wants us to return to him he gave us a way.  That way is through the Holy Temple of our God.  As in times of old and now in this the latter days he is the same.  Father in Heaven loves us!

Thank you mom for teaching me and letting my testimony grow and develop!  I cherish my testimony and will  continue to nurture it and let it grow just as you did with yours!  I love you mom!!