Tonight I can not seem to fall asleep for the life of me. I laid in bed for over an hour and to no avail I did not fall asleep. So I got up and finished the kids conference packets and I made a list of things I need to get at the store tomorrow. I need to go into town to get some things at Costco for the birthday celebration of my sweet sister and my Dad! I can not believe that a year has gone by already. Conference last year with the family in Ks and now with the Family in UT. It will be weird cause mom is now gone from this earthly life and she will be greatly missed. Last year she was so excited because we watched conference on her big screen tv for the first time!!
Any ways I just can not get my mind to slow down and relax tonight. So here I am typing away! I am thinking about my marriage, and how I am feeling about all that has gone on in the last year. The progress my husband has made and if I can actually accept that he is trying to change and if I am willing to let him back into my life just one more time. I am so happy where I am right now it seems so hard to go back and fight again. Just thinking about it makes me sick to my stomach.
I am thinking about my mom and her life that she led and the lives she touched. Oh how I miss her and being able to talk to her on the phone. And the trips we would plan and dream of taking.. We had such fun adventures we wanted to go on and experience together that will only ever be dreams now. Last summer we had planned a camping trip/ backpacking trip in Co that we cancelled because she was sick. I was so excited for that trip to finally be able to go do something we both loved together! This summer I was able to go on my first back packing trip outside of young womens. It was everything I had dreamed of and more. I can tell you this that there will be many more to come! I just wish my mom and I could have experienced one together. Life without her here has been well unbearable at times and other times very peaceful. Anyways I am finally getting tired and hope to fall asleep now so for now....Good night!
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Thinking of your mom today, too. It was a year ago this weekend that we brought my mom to see Pat & Sue. She was looking good & I know Mom enjoyed visiting..... Thoughts to all of you.
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