Feeling better

I do love writing and so I find myself here again. I have started reading this new book that I got from my in-laws (thank you ) . It is called the Holy Secert by James L. Ferrell, author of the Peacegiver. Excellent you should read it. Anyway I am not too far into it but it is about 3 different things that are Holy, The Scriptures, The Temple and The Sabbath. I have been reading the section on the Scriptures and it is fabulous. When I was in High School I never missed reading the scriptures in 4 years every day. At first it was to get my name on the wall and look cool but that changed all to quickly as I could hardly wait to open them. I began to understand them more deeply and apply them to my own life. I loved that feeling and as I would read them answers to my prayers would come. I was close to the spirit and could feel a calm feeling all the time. When I went to college, I became sidetracked with homework, and friends and freedom. I began to loose site of what had mattered most to me. Ever sense then I have had a hard time reading the scriptures and staying close to My Father in Heaven. There have been times in my life where I have felt close an others where I feel far from him. I think many of us can feel that way. But this last week I have began to understand why it is important to always stay close to him. He needs us and we need him. The Scriptures can guide us and teach us many things, Why do I not read them more. So I am making a goal to read them everyday and try to find at least one thing that my Father is trying to teach me.

Ok now I am also on the PTO for the kids school, what was I thinking? I know 6 kids crazy to take anything else on, but nobody else was volunteering. There have been a lot of things said and it has weighed on my mind very heavy and it is hard for me to let things go espeacially when there are negitive things that people are saying that I said and did. What do you do, when someone said you did something and you frankly never remember ever saying anything like unto it? I need to talk to this person and let her know that I love her and that if I have hurt her in any way I am indeed sorry. Then to the others that have told this to me that I am sorry that they had to be involved. How far do you go and what do I do? The PTO people from last year did not want a PTO this year is the feeling I get? At least that is what was said in letters and emails that went around, and my stuburness is that I will not let them have their way. But should I give up or keep going. Why do people have to create drama for everyone to deal with. Maybe homeschool is the way to go? Ok so enough rambling on.