Laughter one minute and throw up the next... always changing!!

 After having such a good day, I took the advice of a good friend and took a nice warm bath.  I had not even filled up the bath when my two older girls frantically came to the bathroom door " she is throwing up, she keeps throwing up.  I had them bring her to me as I was not decent to go in and assist in the excitement.  I got my baby bathed and cleaned up in new jammies and then laid her down with a towel and a bowl.  Cleaned up the mess and then washed and cleaned the carpet cleaner out.  Just as I finished putting it all away Sammie threw up again.  This time not just the floor but the bed and all the bedding.  So now I am finally after all this happened around 8pm and now just sitting down after the clean up.  Well Ok I just had to go up the stairs and help her not throw up all over the floor.  She does not like throwing up and to make it worse when I put the bowl in front of her to throw up in she just gets all worked up so I have to sneak it up to her just as she starts throwing up.  Oh Sammie I hope this runs it course fast, I am not liking this.  I am worn and exhausted after a long emotional weekend.  All the while hiding from my kids the fact that I am not feeling well.  They do so much for me, but there comes a point when I just want them to be kids!  Oh how I long to feel a sense of normalcy in my life again.

I miss my mom and struggle daily with loosing my best friend.  Mom I wish I could have had one more moment with you!  I am glad however for the gift and knowledge of the atonement that allows each of us the joy of being resurrected and being again reunited with our loved ones.  I am grateful for the sealing power here in the Temple that not only binds us as families here in this life but forever, meaning after we die.  I will see my mom and I know that she is waiting for that day when all of us will be with her again.  I also know that she is serving others, doing missionary work teaching family members the gospel with her mom and sister.   Each of these women that have passed on have not left me alone.  I often feel of their presence.  I love knowing that I am not alone.  I feel of there strength, of their wisdom and love for me.  I continue to hear their voices sometimes in my heart and others times as a loud warning , usually just before I am about to do something dumb.  Funny how I am protected by them.  I am often warned by my Aunt that Patience is the the key, be patient Sally and all will be fine.  How does she know that is my hardest and most difficult trial in this life.  Well because she is a smart and amazing women.  Much of the Spiritual wisdom I learned at a young age from the example she set for me.  I hope to one day give her a big hug and tell her thank you for all that she has taught me.  

This I did not mean to be a blah blah emotional entry just the plain fact that being a mother and the challenges that come with being a mother can change in an instant!  A roller coaster of a life that is for sure!